ENOUGH IS ENOUGH!!
As what is titled up above, sometimes everyone has their limits on anything in particular.
Like myself, i can seem to talk to anyone about it. It's either they aren't the right person or they aren't around to hear my plea. However, modern world people tend to make it public on how they feel in such social network which make them at ease after doing that or not. It depends on every individual.
Why can't i be happy on things i love to do and there's someone will always be the one ended up being upset for my happiness or i ended up unable to actually live my life to the fullest.
Here's the scenario, I'm a social drinker, love to hangout late night with regards i'm not working early the next day and enjoy the company of many friends. However, you are in a relationship that against everything you love. Well at first, she doesn't mind about all of this, but time slowly shows that everything i love doing are all wrong! Where are all the excitement go if there's boundaries in every single thing you love doing right?! There i am trying to adapt myself to this relationship and just do as what been told but there's always this stupid mind-set that keep reminding her that i'll always be the 'bad guy'. I changed and she still can't see that, what wrong with you?? I'm trying to make our relationship works without having arguments all the time for something silly but now i had enough of this nonsense where i can even actually be happy with my life when someone i love controlling what i love doing. Therefore, most of my time stuck in my room doing nothing, and just accepting here ways. It felt like history repeats itself where i'm ditching everyone i have in life for some love which i don't even know will last or not. I always have bad decision making for loving someone.
Now, in certain period of time, i felt like having relationship is just a waste of time or not worth having when what you loving doing unable to be fulfill, what gives!! Somehow, i just felt like going off to places no one knows and let them worried like no one else business, just to make my point clear out how upset i can be.
How i wish i have someone who really do understand me with my way i love doing in live and just join me have all the fun instead of doing the opposite. I know all of this before knowing you!! and there's nothing you can do about it! But, for some reason, being soft can be such a heartache just to please something that isn't worth pleasing.
There is so much to say but so little time to be doing so i ended up being upset at myself.
I envied other happy relationship that can be seen last long or forever. Maybe someday, i decided to be alone which are better rather than being 'compelled' or controlled for no apparent reason.
Yours Fucking Truly,
~Theodore John~
Gawai 2012 (Part 1)
30th May - 2nd June
Happy Gawai Dayak Gayu Guru Gerai Nyamai
Date above was the time i celebrated my Gawai at my sister-in-law's longhouse in a small nice town call "Marudi". My first time ever going to Marudi despite had been living in sarawak and was raise but still after so long only this time i managed to travel to this lovely town
Who knew spending my Gawai there would be fun as i expected and getting to know the people there whom are very friendly to one another and thus, very obedient i have ever seen in my entire trip to many longhouses
i would like to take this opportunity to give my million thanks and apologies for my doings and will like to say nice meeting new people that be friend me there. Your company was worth having me there!!
Furthermore, i would like to welcome the family who came all the way from Malacca, (i hope you're reading this) who manage to witnessed the magnificent of Gawai celebration for the very first time and also Kelly's daughter Chloe (correct me if i'm wrong in spelling your names) who won 1st runner up in participating the Kumang Gawai by wearing the Gawai traditional dress.
Welcome to Sarawak and welcome to Marudi to all of you.
Enjoy the pictures below with captions i put on it'll be a lot i can promise you that only time is all i need to do the uploading and blogging. Enjoy everyone!
Happy Gawai Dayak Gayu Guru Gerai Nyamai
Date above was the time i celebrated my Gawai at my sister-in-law's longhouse in a small nice town call "Marudi". My first time ever going to Marudi despite had been living in sarawak and was raise but still after so long only this time i managed to travel to this lovely town
Who knew spending my Gawai there would be fun as i expected and getting to know the people there whom are very friendly to one another and thus, very obedient i have ever seen in my entire trip to many longhouses
i would like to take this opportunity to give my million thanks and apologies for my doings and will like to say nice meeting new people that be friend me there. Your company was worth having me there!!
Furthermore, i would like to welcome the family who came all the way from Malacca, (i hope you're reading this) who manage to witnessed the magnificent of Gawai celebration for the very first time and also Kelly's daughter Chloe (correct me if i'm wrong in spelling your names) who won 1st runner up in participating the Kumang Gawai by wearing the Gawai traditional dress.
Welcome to Sarawak and welcome to Marudi to all of you.
Enjoy the pictures below with captions i put on it'll be a lot i can promise you that only time is all i need to do the uploading and blogging. Enjoy everyone!
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| Gawai eve where everyone from their rooms will walked from one end to other end and is served with "tuak" as a fee for passing thru their rooms then joined together which makes the increase number of followers as well as the music instrument is carried together and played while walking |
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| You can't run from the fee!! |
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| Playing the instruments or not, you still got to pay the fee |
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| Aahoy upfront! we're coming! |
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| Even the pretty ladies of the longhouse joined forces to pay the fee. Talk about girls power :D |
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| Two can play this game by serving to one person at a time |
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| Carried and played by the "boy band" |
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| Drink up!! No escaping |
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| Despite it is called Gawai celebration but not to forget other cultures by wearing their traditional dress by one of our finest lady here |
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| Once they walked to the end, now they have to walk back and again another round of fee is given to return home. That is why some never return home because they was unable to pay the fee and therefore, they "dropped" (If you know what i mean xp) |
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| Here are towards the end of the fee but they need to face the fee of "returning home"
Sorry for the last post up being busy XP
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PSD
Peter says what?? Peter Says what??
Date: 30/10/2011
Venue: Black Box, Solaris, Sri Hartamas
Time: 1500hrs
Matter stated above is the day i attended one of the greatest clothing line that had a tour in Malaysia and I for one attended the tour and it was AWESOME!!
Friends joined was RoyAjong, Cassidy, Richie and Belinda Doe. Thanks for the company and i enjoyed very much
This is the poster to PSD Invasion Tour Malaysia 2011
During the tour there were many bands performed and my eyes was set to one band in particular AHM (An Honest Mistake)
Apart from that, i witnessed what i expected from a gig such as this was mosh!, stage dive, screamo, hardcore metal, rockers, DJ and etc...
T-shirts sold at 20% and 50% discounts!!
Free stickers
PSD compilation 2011 CD
I got myself a shirt of PSD, countless stickers with CD came together in a PSD goodie bag!!
not to forget check out AHM (An Honest Mistake)
AHM photographer/videographer Roy Ajong
Signing out,
Theodore John
Cheers!!
PeterSaysDenim!!!
PSD Invasion Tour in Malaysia 2011
PSD Invasion Tour in Malaysia 2011
Date: 30/10/2011
Venue: Black Box, Solaris, Sri Hartamas
Time: 1500hrs
Matter stated above is the day i attended one of the greatest clothing line that had a tour in Malaysia and I for one attended the tour and it was AWESOME!!
Friends joined was RoyAjong, Cassidy, Richie and Belinda Doe. Thanks for the company and i enjoyed very much
This is the poster to PSD Invasion Tour Malaysia 2011During the tour there were many bands performed and my eyes was set to one band in particular AHM (An Honest Mistake)
Apart from that, i witnessed what i expected from a gig such as this was mosh!, stage dive, screamo, hardcore metal, rockers, DJ and etc...
T-shirts sold at 20% and 50% discounts!!
Free stickers
PSD compilation 2011 CD
I got myself a shirt of PSD, countless stickers with CD came together in a PSD goodie bag!!
I would love to see PSD again if they do return to Malaysia
Do follow them on their website, facebook and twitter
Do follow them on their website, facebook and twitter
http://www.petersaysdenim.com/ (website)
http://familyblog,petersaysdenim.com/ (blog)
http://www.facebook.com/PetersaysdenimMalaysia (PSD Malaysia)
http://www.facebook.com/petersaysdenim (PSD clothing)
http://www.facebook.com/luckypetertattoo (Lucky Peter tattoo store)
http://www.facebook.com/psdrecords (PSD records)
http://twitter.com/#!/petersaysdenim (Twitter PSD)
http://twitter.com/#!/PSDmalaysia (twitter PSD Malaysia)
http://familyblog,petersaysdenim.com/ (blog)
http://www.facebook.com/PetersaysdenimMalaysia (PSD Malaysia)
http://www.facebook.com/petersaysdenim (PSD clothing)
http://www.facebook.com/luckypetertattoo (Lucky Peter tattoo store)
http://www.facebook.com/psdrecords (PSD records)
http://twitter.com/#!/petersaysdenim (Twitter PSD)
http://twitter.com/#!/PSDmalaysia (twitter PSD Malaysia)
not to forget check out AHM (An Honest Mistake)
http://www.facebook.com/anhonestmistake (facebook page)
http://twitter.com/#!/AHMband (twitter)
http://twitter.com/#!/AHMband (twitter)
AHM photographer/videographer Roy Ajong
http://www.royajong.com (website)
Signing out,
Theodore John
Cheers!!
Bsc Nursing?
Yup that's what i'm going to pursue.
Bsc Nursing Majoring in 3 subjects within 2years :D
1. Trauma and Emergency Room
2. Mental
3. Oncology
1st reason why i want major in Trauma and ER because i'm currently working in one
2nd reason why i want to major in Mental because many of my friends says i'm crazy :P so, i would like to take that challenge and to take up Mental subject :P
3rd reason why i want to major in Oncology is honestly, mainly the name 'ONCOLOGY' it sounded cool to me ahaha LOL!!
There you have it, what will i major for Nursing in the near Future :)
Cheers!!
~Theodore John~
Bsc Nursing Majoring in 3 subjects within 2years :D
1. Trauma and Emergency Room
2. Mental
3. Oncology
1st reason why i want major in Trauma and ER because i'm currently working in one
2nd reason why i want to major in Mental because many of my friends says i'm crazy :P so, i would like to take that challenge and to take up Mental subject :P
3rd reason why i want to major in Oncology is honestly, mainly the name 'ONCOLOGY' it sounded cool to me ahaha LOL!!
There you have it, what will i major for Nursing in the near Future :)
Cheers!!
~Theodore John~
Looking for my Calling??
Each person there's a calling for what's the right thing to do in life example, in working you need to know if you love it and enjoy what you work as otherwise it'll be just a waste of time
As for myself i don't think i found my calling yet. I worked as a nurse in a Hospital but do i really enjoy it?? i'm not sure myself but then again i do want to further my studies pursuing Nursing as my career.
However, i love doing production with my Friend Roy Ajong. (www.royajong.com)
He treats people as equal despite having less time he still hangs out to be with friends. He even invited me for photo shooting events and sorts.
Recently, more like right now, he is the official videographer/photographer for Jayesslee, the youtube celeb having concert in Malaysia for the very first time
I can't be more proud the my friend Roy Ajong managed to be the officials for the twins
Unfortunately, i'm unable to attend any of the twin's concert as i'll be working :((
well it's not my luck i must say. But, i'll be joining as part of Roy's crew for Petersaydenim wears :D
I hope despite working as a nurse, i want production to be my calling and to be able to advance it in the future. (finger cross) :P
If any of you reading this tell me what's your calling?? :D
That's all from me now.
Cheers,
TheodoreJohn
As for myself i don't think i found my calling yet. I worked as a nurse in a Hospital but do i really enjoy it?? i'm not sure myself but then again i do want to further my studies pursuing Nursing as my career.
However, i love doing production with my Friend Roy Ajong. (www.royajong.com)
He treats people as equal despite having less time he still hangs out to be with friends. He even invited me for photo shooting events and sorts.
Recently, more like right now, he is the official videographer/photographer for Jayesslee, the youtube celeb having concert in Malaysia for the very first time
I can't be more proud the my friend Roy Ajong managed to be the officials for the twins
Unfortunately, i'm unable to attend any of the twin's concert as i'll be working :((
well it's not my luck i must say. But, i'll be joining as part of Roy's crew for Petersaydenim wears :D
I hope despite working as a nurse, i want production to be my calling and to be able to advance it in the future. (finger cross) :P
If any of you reading this tell me what's your calling?? :D
That's all from me now.
Cheers,
TheodoreJohn
Forget The Past! New Chapter!
It's has been months since i wrote in my blog!
First things first,
As my title stated above
What ever you read below is my past and i'm over it. I've move on!
I'm currently living my life having good friends around that i'm blessed with
This shout out goes to ALVIN DIAN, LULU COX, VEEC KAOS, ROY AJONG.
You guys are the greatest to be able to accompany a friend in need
Secondly,
yes i'm in a relationship now, and it's going great! There isn't any problems i faced from the past. Dearest, you may be the future or the past i may not know but if you are the future don't appear too fast to settle down that's just plain wrong!! There's thousands of things not done yet in this! don't miss out the opportunity and excitement
Lastly,
Currently, earlier this year month of January, i got transferred to a new facility of Columbia Asia Hospital - Cheras but i'm not loving it as how i love my previous Hospital. However, that's life right.
Furthermore, i'm doing fine with work but hard in life
Then, i'm currently persuing part of hat i always wanted to do in life!! Acting, Producing, and Directing a short film!!!
That's for now
By the way, i get to learn something new yesterday (18/9/2011) when i went to Church with ROY AJONG!
I found peace in ♥
I found peace in mind
Forget the past, Advanced yourself, move forward don't look back and you will definitely end up find the tears of JOY!
Cheers!!!
First things first,
As my title stated above
What ever you read below is my past and i'm over it. I've move on!
I'm currently living my life having good friends around that i'm blessed with
This shout out goes to ALVIN DIAN, LULU COX, VEEC KAOS, ROY AJONG.
You guys are the greatest to be able to accompany a friend in need
Secondly,
yes i'm in a relationship now, and it's going great! There isn't any problems i faced from the past. Dearest, you may be the future or the past i may not know but if you are the future don't appear too fast to settle down that's just plain wrong!! There's thousands of things not done yet in this! don't miss out the opportunity and excitement
Lastly,
Currently, earlier this year month of January, i got transferred to a new facility of Columbia Asia Hospital - Cheras but i'm not loving it as how i love my previous Hospital. However, that's life right.
Furthermore, i'm doing fine with work but hard in life
Then, i'm currently persuing part of hat i always wanted to do in life!! Acting, Producing, and Directing a short film!!!
That's for now
By the way, i get to learn something new yesterday (18/9/2011) when i went to Church with ROY AJONG!
I found peace in ♥
I found peace in mind
Forget the past, Advanced yourself, move forward don't look back and you will definitely end up find the tears of JOY!
Cheers!!!
My Answer
To my beautiful most precious Nurain Afiza,
This would definitely be my answers
whenever you asked me this question and
there's reason to my answers
Have i crossed in your mind?
NoDo you like me?
No
Do you want me?
No
Would you cry if i left?
No
Would you live for me?
No
Would you do anything for me?
No
Choose my or your life?
my life
The reason you never crossed in my mind because
You're always in my mind!
The reason why i don't like you because
ILOVEYOUTONS!
The reason why i don't want because
I need you!
The reason why i wouldn't cry if left because
I'll die if you left!
The reason i wouldn't live for you because
I would die for you!
The reason why I'm not willing to do anything because
I'm willing to do everything for you!
The reason why i chose my life because
You are my LIFE!
You're always in my mind!
The reason why i don't like you because
ILOVEYOUTONS!
The reason why i don't want because
I need you!
The reason why i wouldn't cry if left because
I'll die if you left!
The reason i wouldn't live for you because
I would die for you!
The reason why I'm not willing to do anything because
I'm willing to do everything for you!
The reason why i chose my life because
You are my LIFE!
In everything i do and as well as you do in life it links every moment between you and me. That was my promise to you everything would be just you and me in this world. Nothing matters when i have you around my arms, happiness, joy, sadness, good and bad we been through together until now we are still together. You are part of me i was looking and i managed to find you to filled the opposite of me.
You are my half I'm longing to find, You are what I'm not that was just perfect for me
You and me both are 1 most Perfection lover in this broad world!
I'm proud and happy to say iloveyoutons Nurain Afiza♥!! You meant the world to me!
You are my half I'm longing to find, You are what I'm not that was just perfect for me
You and me both are 1 most Perfection lover in this broad world!
I'm proud and happy to say iloveyoutons Nurain Afiza♥!! You meant the world to me!
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