Promise me something

You're counting the days returning, i'm denying that you're going back

Saying that i'm happy for you that you get to go back to your hometown i am and at the same time i'm not. Watching you go was the hardest thing i could ever did or see soon. Was i being paranoia for her absence for days, weeks, months???

Its hard to see you're going off soon, i have to see you in a day even for a while. I can't stand on my own i need you to held me up, I misses you every moment even when you're around me because you're going back soon, left me alone lonely without any company you've given me everyday.

Held you close to me was the only thing i could think of right now, letting you go never came pass my thoughts ever. Seeing your face every time definitely gives me all sorts of emotions. Happy, excited, timid, pampered, awe, sigh, so much more to elaborate.

Leaving you, when i'm about to go back or like wise, makes me sad to even say goodbye, to even walk fast away but slowly and watched as you closed the door or showing your back on me as i were still looking at you from a distance thinking you would look back at me to see that i missed you already.

Promise me, even we're far a distance away, unable to see each other you will love me, chase after me, remembered me every moment not wanting our relationship to end but to keep it alive as it was now till then. I've promise you that earlier on to you and now i want you to say on your own words that you'll do the same.

Showing you all my love with no regrets i here by saying that i am truly in love with the one and only NURAIN AFIZA always and forever.

p/s: i cried doing this really can't believe i just did that :p

fromthe♥,
theodorejohn♥Bibey

BiBey BiBey

36 more kisses to be receive by her unexpectedly :)

I bet you won't succeed your mission...

I want this to happen this week (to whom it may concern, not next week)

1. I want to be posted at the same location with Bibey
2. Wishing you all the best in your final mathematic examination darling you can do it...
3. The unfortunate event / series has ended no worries
4. I'll bring you nasi goreng enough for 3 person's meal
5. Madam Hayati will not talk bout what haad happened anymore... i guess
6. I want my uniform as well... Its nice to hear you're saying please and thank you sayang make it a good habit

Sincerely feedback teehee,

theodorejohnLOVESBibey

p/s : i forgot how to make the love icon huhuhu

Missing you already

Can't help thinking of you

Days passes by and it soon going to be our attachments i can't help myself for knowing where will we be posted this time... i'm hoping it will be with you this time...

My Bibey will be going back 2nd October and i will be left behind.. T.T... now will be the time that i really wish we will be posted at the same place i can't stand being alone without her for 3 months or better yet till the end of the year argghhh....

Sayang, i wrote something for you, it suppose to be a song but i do not have the melody yet so... i just wrote into a piece of paper. It was done at the pond that morning when we had our arguements here it goes...

I believe that we will
Get this through till the end
I can say that i truly, deeply love you

Sitting on the bench near
this wide empty pond
thinking through what i've done
that has made you so mad

I am sorry for what i've done
This stupid mistakes kept repeating
And you are fond
Of what i did and ignored
Me at all

I'm trying to tell you
That i'm truly sad
Packed my bag that's a regret

Because i'm leaving you
On your own
It's such a childish way to do
But now i'm making up all that

Please accept my apology
This is how i could let you know
with this song, my feelings revealed

This is what i had in mind....

During the night i was at the pond, this is also the last thing i had in mind before going back to your place.

"Now, all i want to do is go back to her place, go into her room even if she is sleeping or awake, i really want to say i'm truly sorry for leaving you and for what i've done towards you that night. Dear, I really can't afford to lose you at all cost. You've taken my heart and nothing can change the feeling i felt towards you"

Thank you so much darling for the effort of looking for me even in the state of semi-conscious. Deep inside you, you know that we both need each other much

ILOVEYOUSOMUCH BIBEY

sincerely,
theodorejohnlingan♥bibey

Morning

Early morning waking up thinkuing what will my day will be and how would it be... Got a called from a friend saying he's about to go back to hometown well for the holiday... To everyone my shout out will be Selamat Hari Raya may y'all have a pleasant Raya... This would be our last day before Raya Hols... thus i would love if the lecturers who's going to teach us today giving us axception for us to go back early... For god sake its Raya pls do let us go back early.... And to my dearest who's sleeping soundly at home once again i would like to say happy 2ndmonthsary...

That's all for my morning statement

Sincerely,

theodorejohnlingan

Happy 2nd Monthsary Darling

Bibey: Sayang, whats the different btween when you first know me & now? Maksud B kan, um nta la juga. Paham la sendiri.

John: First? Well, the differences is a lot. Come to think of it, you were angry at me for what others talk crap about me and you think that i was fooling you in this relationship. But not even close I was playing with your heart because i'm done searching and i'm happy having you all the time. Then, now... The differences i see in you is, you showered me with all your heart to me and really showed me that you truly love me so much no words can describe. you don't even care what others think anymore but rather you find out the real me and i am glad that you believe me... Up till now i love you even more every moment and will always be loving you forever. ILOVEYOUTONSBIBEY!!!

Bibey: At last, lama me tunggu you habis type. Mau ngantuk juga suda ni. Plus, so jiwanggg oh sayang. Um. I dont know what to say actually. All I know is, I love you & if possible I wanted to spend 24/7 with you. But sayang, no offence, you're second on my love life list, since you know, my number one is my bantal busuk. Btw, Happy 2nd Monthsaryyy, agaiin :)
& I love you more.

This was the conversation we had before starting to write out what i really want to say.

First of all, Happy 2nd Monthsary Darling you know that i love you so much!
Secondly, for this exact pass 2 months, i've been seing you everyday and guess what it has taught me a lot in terms of relationship, understanding, arguements and much more but the most important was that we love each other so much.

This pass few weeks till now, there were so much things happened to us but we managed to go through it anyway and honestly it does makes me feel that my love towards you are beyond comparison. I love what you're doing to me in good and bad ways but to me i take it as a piece of your way of showing affections of love. For example. You bite me really hard and punch me girly softly. But did you ever noticed that whenever it hurts i would just say that it doesn't hurt and when it doesn't hurt i just say it hurts so bad. I don't care if it has a marked on me nor it doesn't but the thing is that you did and it does has a marked n my heart.

The way you 'lepas geram' by biting, hitting, and pinching was the best... I want you to share all the things inside in anyways you feel how you like it. I love whenever you do it to me, atleast you feel more relieve after doing that.

Thirdly, I would definitely love to find out, one day how would you make me remember a day which is the most romantic thing you've done for me, as how i have did to you by bringing you to a pond when it rains and i sang a song which goes like this "And we danced to the melody i'll kiss you in the rain, i'll hold on to you and we go high up in the sky, and we sail the seven seas i promise never lose the moment, i'll be there and kiss you in the rain" or i brought yo to "Bukit Ampang" for a sightseeing of KL views from a hill.

Finally, i know i may be too "jiwang" but this is how i really feel towards you bibey. I wish one day i could really say a sentence that will make us together till the end. ILOVEYOUSOMUCH BIBEY... Once again HAPPY 2ND MONTHSARY DARLING....

Funny moment LOL!!

There i was washing my face and brush my teeth. Just about to go to bed. But suddenly in the midst of washing my face, grill and door of the house was opened by someone who not suppose to see me inside this house. I stay put in the toilet waiting a knock from bibey, but wasn't sure because i heard a knock before the front door was open. I opened the toilet door and saw her housemate and thought how long will i be stuck in here?? i closed back the toilet door and waited for a knock.... thoughts in my mind how if she knock and ask me "who's inside?" what should i do?? i wasn't panic at that time. However i heard someone when to the room and lock the door, and expected someone else will open the door and knock the toilet door. I was right, bibey knock the door asked my to quickly get inside the room.

There i was foolish again for i wanted to put my facial and toothbrush back at bibey's rations then.... wreeeckkk... the door of her housemate was open. I was panic at the same time was about to laugh because 'terkantoi' she saw me. Bibey was laughing profusely non stop and shen in the room both of us looking at each other and just laughed... she was laughing as loud as she could but i at the other hand was laughing inside!! So we sat in the room, she lied down and i was sitting. Bibey asked me what do you feel?? i said 'nothing'...

She infact somehow have a six sense something bad going to happen so i decided to step out to my other friend's house... and now i'm writing this blog to recall what had happened.

Honestly, that moment was so darn funny i can't decribed how it was...

I'm chasing after her

Dearest darling,

I'm wishing to be with you always, no matter what happens i'll be by your side. Doing so much i can to show how much i truly appreciate you, showing you the real me, and not by what others think of me. Having you feels like i have no worries, we're going through this together, hard and easy but the moment to be together that counts....

Now i'm going with you with no questions ask. I want to be wherever you're going. But the hardest thing is leaving you just a moment makes me missing you the most. Can't stop thinking of you, right now, i must see you even if it means i got to walk, crawl or sacrifice so much but i'm doing it with will to be with you.

Soon will be our attachment, i'm thinking what am i to do?? And, so the opportunity given, list of attachment for peeps who wants to be attach back to their hometowns. I wrote my name in it but not my hometown but yours. I can't be somewhere else because we both know we need each other profusely.

Remember you asked me what are my wishes if i were given 3 wishes?? Well my first wish was to be free... Free from anything that comes our way in this relationship. My second wish is to be a rich person and generous to others but not spendive. We need money so much because we love stuff a lot... My third wish is I wish to be with you forever not until couple but marriage life and promise to love you each moment and expected the same in return. This are my 3 wishes i want.

i here by saying iloveyoutons bibey don't ever change. My feelings for you keeps growing every moment.

With love,
theodorejohnlovesbibeyalways

It has been in mind and was shared to my twin

Watching the moon at night...
As its passes above me...
Wandered if life is like the Moon and the Sun...
it's like the Day and Night.
Watching the stars at night seating next to the moon,
Watch the moon glowing
Which all seems connected
To be a reason of a human love relationship circle
About life is going round and round And has no ends.
Life is a sea, which have its own generation from the past
To the current time being.

Don't ever change

If you hear this wherever you are
Just know I need you here
I need you now
You were brighter than the pale white moon
Reflected in your eyes
So I guess it's no surprise
I can't forget you
No matter what I do

I will always carry you in my heart
You'll always be my shooting star
Autumn days will fade away
But memories will always stay the same
I'm hoping you will never change
Don't ever change

I just need to slow down for a while
I'm missing your warm smile
And the way you used to say
stay with me till the daylight breaks
No matter what it takes
Just say you'll stay

my love towards you are infinite i'm not going change the way i am because you'll always have me by your side

iloveyousomuch,
theodorelovebibey

Life after she comes along

nurain afiza bt abd latif
18/07/2009
i promised to love and care for you each moment
iloveyou always bibey i promise i'll love you as long as you still need me, want me & loves me. i love you sincerely

iloveyou,
theodorejohnlingan